Billie Eilish is sharing her journey of self-discovery within womanhood, addressing the persistent scrutiny surrounding her body and sexuality over the years. In a recent interview for Variety’s The Power of Women edition, the 21-year-old superstar opened up about her evolving perception of femininity and her attraction to women.
Having long been recognized for her trademark baggy attire concealing her figure, Eilish revealed her ongoing struggle with self-image and identity, expressing that she has never felt the sense of being desired or feminine. She candidly admitted, “I’ve never felt like a woman. I’ve never felt desirable. I have to convince myself that I’m a pretty girl.”
While affirming her preferred pronouns as ‘she/her,’ Eilish clarified that despite identifying as such, she hasn’t fully embraced a conventional sense of girlhood. The Grammy winner attributed her complex feelings about womanhood to difficulties relating to other women, stating, “I’ve never really felt like I could relate to girls very well.”
Despite these challenges, Eilish openly acknowledged her attraction to women, emphasizing her deep connections with female friends and family. She expressed genuine admiration, confessing, “I love [women] so much. I’m attracted to them as people. I’m attracted to them for real. But I’m also so intimidated by them and their beauty and their presence.”
Addressing the intense scrutiny she has faced regarding her sexuality and dating history, Eilish admitted to feeling unsettled by the public’s interest. Despite her relatively private approach to personal matters, she has faced media attention surrounding her relationships, including her recent split from Jesse Rutherford of The Neighborhood.
Reflecting on her dating history, which includes romances with Jesse Rutherford, Matthew Tyler Vorce, and rapper Brandon Adams (7:AMP), Eilish expressed frustration with the double standards applied to discussions about her life compared to her male counterparts. In a 2021 interview with Elle, she questioned why such inquiries were directed at her, emphasizing her initial intent to focus on her music rather than her personal life.